Well what a productive day I’ve had today, I recorded 6 episodes of my podcast with 6 different guests and did I “gig”. I use quotation marks technically the gig didn’t happen. The audience wasn’t big enough for the night to go ahead. But I still did some stuff for the small amount of people that did show up. It actually worked out quite well because the extra time meant I got to record 2 episodes of my podcast.
I’m so tired right now so this will be a short blog. I’m really happy with myself right now, I’d been going through a prolonged period of not liking myself very much and that makes it much harder as a comedian to convince other people to like you. I feel like these pills are helping me to remind myself how to enjoy being me. I don’t have any other options either so whether you like yourself or not, you’re kind of stuck with yourself.
Tomorrow I’m at work again, so far I haven’t been as stressed with the idea of slaving away to make someone else money. Work is unfortunately a necessary evil. So it must be tolerated. And I’m tolerating much better now. Obviously I still want to do something else, something creative. My day job is the thing in my life I’m least happy with so I need to change that and until I can get a new job I’m just going to have to start feeling happier with the one I’ve got. That’s tough, especially after working there for 8 years. But the other option is to continue hating it as strongly as I did and that’s what lead me down the road of depression.
I suppose the silver lining to that is if I hadn’t become depressed I might not have started this blog, I might not have started my podcast. Everything happens for a reason and me feeling at my lowest was the catalyst to show me that I never want to feel that way again and I need to do everything in my power to stop it.
Thanks for reading and speak to you tomorrow.