My Life; on Anti-Depressants

Day 19

Today has been an emotional roller coaster.  My first customer and I had a deep discussion about spirituality and religion.  I’m not a religious person, I’m not an atheist either, I believe that anyone is entitle to believe what they want as long as they don’t bring harm to others.  I believe in energy, I believe that we are made of energy, and that energy cannot die, it can only change form.  I think that our energies are constantly changing and influenced by what is around us, who we meet and spend time with and how we’re feeling. I don’t mean that I believe in the power of crystal healing or that people need to realign their chakra in order to be happy, but if you do that’s fine.  I don’t think you can control everything in your life, you can’t change the past for a start and that’s always a huge part of who you are but you can change the way you look at it.  But I do believe you can affect your energy.

Another customer told me about her personal recent tragedy, out of respect I won’t go into details but it certainly made me realise how important it is to cherish what you have.  I wish absolutely nothing but the best for this woman and I felt sick that people exist in the world that can do such horrible things such as rape and murder.  The rest of my day was filled with traffic and mediocrity.  Which much better than before my anti-depressants when it was filled with rage and sadness… and traffic.

Tonight I hosted one of my monthly stand up nights, it was a brilliant night in a sold out room.  There was a hen party in the audience, I hate weddings, but apparently a lot of people love them so I have no choice but to accept that, and as a result of this acceptance I will be invited to weddings.  Just to clarify, I was not invited to this hen party bride-to-be’s wedding, but friends and family tend to invite me to them.  Family wedding are particularly weird, standing around with a load of people that you may or may not be related to.  I have a large family – like 7 aunties and 7 uncles, lots of whom are married.  That’s a shit load of cousins… and weddings.  Back to the gig though,  I had a brilliant time and I’m feeling more confident every time I step on stage.  My next gig is a competition for English Comedian of the Year on Sunday so wish me luck.  I’m going to go to sleep now because it’s 3am and I need to stop staring at a computer screen and have a productive weekend.

Thanks for reading and I’ll speak to you tomorrow.



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